Pre-flight jitters

I love traveling, but I hate traveling. The whole infrastructure for international travel is laden with bureaucracy, delays, and confusion in the best of times. (Post) Pandemic times are not the best of times. You may have heard about the mayhem at the Schiphol Airport in Amsterdam over the summer. Five hour security lines, delayed…

Finding Purpose, Fighting MEH

As humans, we are drawn to meaning and purpose. This makes us pretty unique among the animal kingdom. I’ve never met a dog who was concerned about making a difference in the world. Our inclination to find, make, and seek meaning also tends to make us a little miserable. The basics of survival never feel…

Blogging for Mental Health

Once upon a time, I joined Livejournal. I was a latecomer to the platform, and I already had a blog elsewhere in 2006, but I had a few new (younger) acquaintances on the platform, and I was interested in reading what they wrote about. Then I started writing there, too, and it became a great…

Becoming Mr. Spock

Matter of fact. That’s how my writing coach described a few sections of my memoir. I’m writing my way through my high school years, and I’m realizing that I really don’t feel any kind of way about it. Teenage girls have big feelings, she told me, as if I should know that. I was a…

Black Coffee

I love a hot cup of pure, black coffee. On Tuesdays, Thursdays, and Sundays, I eschew my morning coffee concoction (“bulletproof,” with MCT oil, collagen, and Nutpod creamer) and drink my coffee how I’ve always preferred it. These are my intermittent fasting days, but I never feel like I’m depriving myself when I have a…

Mid-year check-in

I launched this blog around the beginning of 2022, and while I am pleased with some of the content I’ve published, it is not really the blog that I want it to be. Why? I’m writing it as if I’m an expert trying to “monetize” or create professional clout in an area that I’m frankly…

Why You’ll Never Be Happy

If you want to enjoy your life, stop trying to be happy. There are so many books and podcasts and courses about finding happiness, you’d think there might be a formula or set of steps you can follow, but here’s the secret they never put on the book jacket: happiness is not a state that…

Get comfortable being uncomfortable

Why are you so uncomfortable? Why do we work so hard to avoid discomfort? Within our first few days of existence we’ve figured out that discomfort is part of the deal. To cope with it, we scream our heads off. We have to depend on others to change our diapers, feed us when we’re hungry,…

Mindfulness is impossible. (Did I just stand up?)

Am I standing or sitting? Seriously. I have no idea. I have recently discovered that I live in an almost entirely disembodied state. Let me explain. I have been using the Headspace app for about a year now, and working my way through some of their programs. I’m currently doing the series on managing anxiety….